Month: January 2015

They will kill you.  They do not care who you are.  They will kill you.  SUENME

Taking it forward in poverty. Forgive them? That’s not my job.

Adding to the my blog site and I don’t think I can be stopped since it is mostly public records, except for the 35 or so exhibits of mine which the courts destroyed before putting them on fiche.  I though they would put them on fiche before they destroyed them.  One exhibit was the long list of mind benders the doctor prescribed from October 2004 until my Ambien break down in February 2005.  Another exhibit was maps and photos etc showing that I could not have surrounded and blocked the medical doctor the way that they said I did.  I knew had lost and that they were not going to help me from what they did, so I had to disclose as much to the public that I could.  As I said, it was all destroyed, and for me it took place ten years ago.  I could not keep all of that paperwork with everything else I have been struggling with trying ot ignore them and what they were doing to me which included hacking my computers and illegally entering my home to leave a note behind for me.  Now the pharmacies no long keep record of the drugs we are given beyond about a year.  This helps erase what they do to us, their experiments they perform on us with their mind benders.  I will publicly began displaying evidence, since the police have not done anything with it and have even expressed their enamor for the doctors.forgive

Cowardly, shitty, greedy people.

There is a song by U2, Stuck In A Moment. In my situation it has not been me stuck in the moment, but it has been a family and a network of people. For ten years, primarily spent by me trying to recover on my own, I’ve been trying to recover from their medical malpractice. But this group of people will not allow it and they have harassed me and they have terrorized me.  Nonetheless I need to and will continue fighting for wellness and to have positive closure. It is their reluctance to give me space to make this happen that has been the problem. It is very odd to have people pretending that they are ‘helping’ who indeed are not. These are people without decency, because they know what they have done is wrong. But by skirting it, lurking in the shadows instead of being forthright, they don’t have to face who they really are and that really they are just a family and a network of being a bunch of cowardly, shitty, greedy people. They have been attempting to re-write my story, but that word has already gotten out and now truly decent and intelligent people are letting me know they know.   Now I can write the story through my own eyes.

Is the FDA really so blind?

…On to the list of mass shooters and the stark link to psychotropic drugs.
Eric Harris age 17 (first on Zoloft then Luvox) and Dylan Klebold aged 18 (Columbine school shooting in Littleton, Colorado), killed 12 students and 1 teacher, and wounded 23 others, before killing themselves. Klebold’s medical records have never been made available to the public.
Jeff Weise, age 16, had been prescribed 60 mg/day of Prozac (three times the average starting dose for adults!) when he shot his grandfather, his grandfather’s girlfriend and many fellow students at Red Lake, Minnesota. He then shot himself. 10 dead, 12 wounded.
Cory Baadsgaard, age 16, Wahluke (Washington state) High School, was on Paxil (which caused him to have hallucinations) when he took a rifle to his high school and held 23 classmates hostage. He has no memory of the event.
Chris Fetters, age 13, killed his favorite aunt while taking Prozac.
Christopher Pittman, age 12, murdered both his grandparents while taking Zoloft.
Mathew Miller, age 13, hanged himself in his bedroom closet after taking Zoloft for 6 days.
Kip Kinkel, age 15, (on Prozac and Ritalin) shot his parents while they slept then went to school and opened fire killing 2 classmates and injuring 22 shortly after beginning Prozac treatment.
Luke Woodham, age 16 (Prozac) killed his mother and then killed two students, wounding six others.
A boy in Pocatello, ID (Zoloft) in 1998 had a Zoloft-induced seizure that caused an armed stand off at his school.
Michael Carneal (Ritalin), age 14, opened fire on students at a high school prayer meeting in West Paducah, Kentucky. Three teenagers were killed, five others were wounded..
A young man in Huntsville, Alabama (Ritalin) went psychotic chopping up his parents with an ax and also killing one sibling and almost murdering another.
Andrew Golden, age 11, (Ritalin) and Mitchell Johnson, aged 14, (Ritalin) shot 15 people, killing four students, one teacher, and wounding 10 others.
TJ Solomon, age 15, (Ritalin) high school student in Conyers, Georgia opened fire on and wounded six of his class mates.
Rod Mathews, age 14, (Ritalin) beat a classmate to death with a bat.
James Wilson, age 19, (various psychiatric drugs) from Breenwood, South Carolina, took a .22 caliber revolver into an elementary school killing two young girls, and wounding seven other children and two teachers.
Elizabeth Bush, age 13, (Paxil) was responsible for a school shooting in Pennsylvania
Jason Hoffman (Effexor and Celexa) – school shooting in El Cajon, California
Jarred Viktor, age 15, (Paxil), after five days on Paxil he stabbed his grandmother 61 times.
Chris Shanahan, age 15 (Paxil) in Rigby, ID who out of the blue killed a woman.
Jeff Franklin (Prozac and Ritalin), Huntsville, AL, killed his parents as they came home from work using a sledge hammer, hatchet, butcher knife and mechanic’s file, then attacked his younger brothers and sister.
Neal Furrow (Prozac) in LA Jewish school shooting reported to have been court-ordered to be on Prozac along with several other medications.
Kevin Rider, age 14, was withdrawing from Prozac when he died from a gunshot wound to his head. Initially it was ruled a suicide, but two years later, the investigation into his death was opened as a possible homicide. The prime suspect, also age 14, had been taking Zoloft and other SSRI antidepressants.
Alex Kim, age 13, hanged himself shortly after his Lexapro prescription had been doubled.
Diane Routhier was prescribed Welbutrin for gallstone problems. Six days later, after suffering many adverse effects of the drug, she shot herself.
Billy Willkomm, an accomplished wrestler and a University of Florida student, was prescribed Prozac at the age of 17. His family found him dead of suicide – hanging from a tall ladder at the family’s Gulf Shore Boulevard home in July 2002.
Kara Jaye Anne Fuller-Otter, age 12, was on Paxil when she hanged herself from a hook in her closet. Kara’s parents said “…. the damn doctor wouldn’t take her off it and I asked him to when we went in on the second visit. I told him I thought she was having some sort of reaction to Paxil…”)
Gareth Christian, Vancouver, age 18, was on Paxil when he committed suicide in 2002,
(Gareth’s father could not accept his son’s death and killed himself.)
Julie Woodward, age 17, was on Zoloft when she hanged herself in her family’s detached garage.
Matthew Miller was 13 when he saw a psychiatrist because he was having difficulty at school. The psychiatrist gave him samples of Zoloft. Seven days later his mother found him dead, hanging by a belt from a laundry hook in his closet.
Kurt Danysh, age 18, and on Prozac, killed his father with a shotgun. He is now behind prison bars, and writes letters, trying to warn the world that SSRI drugs can kill.
Woody ____, age 37, committed suicide while in his 5th week of taking Zoloft. Shortly before his death his physician suggested doubling the dose of the drug. He had seen his physician only for insomnia. He had never been depressed, nor did he have any history of any mental illness symptoms.
A boy from Houston, age 10, shot and killed his father after his Prozac dosage was increased.
Hammad Memon, age 15, shot and killed a fellow middle school student. He had been diagnosed with ADHD and depression and was taking Zoloft and “other drugs for the conditions.”
Matti Saari, a 22-year-old culinary student, shot and killed 9 students and a teacher, and wounded another student, before killing himself. Saari was taking an SSRI and a benzodiazapine.
Steven Kazmierczak, age 27, shot and killed five people and wounded 21 others before killing himself in a Northern Illinois University auditorium. According to his girlfriend, he had recently been taking Prozac, Xanax and Ambien. Toxicology results showed that he still had trace amounts of Xanax in his system.
Finnish gunman Pekka-Eric Auvinen, age 18, had been taking antidepressants before he killed eight people and wounded a dozen more at Jokela High School – then he committed suicide.
Asa Coon from Cleveland, age 14, shot and wounded four before taking his own life. Court records show Coon was on Trazodone.
Jon Romano, age 16, on medication for depression, fired a shotgun at a teacher in his New York high school…

Read more at murder1  Is the FDA really elliot-roger-fb-800x597so blind?  Why did Elliot not want to take those drugs?  When was he made to begin taking them?  Why is nobody asking these questions?

Man decapitates Mother….is the look on this guy’s face familiar?


Florida Man Charged With Decapitating Mom With Ax
A schizophrenic Florida man chopped off his mother’s head with an ax because she kept nagging him about chores, police said Thursday. Christian Jose Gomez, 23, who has several previous arrests, was booked on a charge of first-degree murder for the grisly New Year’s Eve crime in Oldsmar.

He allegedly told police he had been planning the attack for two days because he was angry over his mother’s requests that he put some boxes in the attic, NBC station WFLA reported. Gomez put his mother’s head in a garbage can but couldn’t lift her body so he left it outside.

“He just left the body sitting there, next to the trash can, went into the garage, tried to clean up the scene a little bit,” Pinellas County Sheriff Bob Gualtieri said. “When he saw that wouldn’t happen is when he left.”

The body was discovered by victim Marua Suarez Cassagne’s older son, who was home at the time but didn’t realize what was happening.

Police found the suspect a few blocks away and arrested him after a brief chase. The sheriff said he is a diagnosed schizophrenic who is supposed to be taking medication and was committed for psychiatric evaluation at least once last year.

A relative told NBC News that she believes Gomez was “a good person” whose illness overwhelmed him.

“She was a really good mother,” the family member said of Cassagne. “And Christian was normal until like age 20 — I think when he was diagnosed.

“It’s so confusing what happened,” she said. “It’s scary.”

I have been verbally threatened for speaking out.

I have been physically raped by a hired sociopath psycho analyst for speaking out.  I have been driven into poverty for speaking out.  I have been made unemployable.  Not because I am not employable or capable, but because I am being driven out.  I was supposed to die.  My life was such beforehand, on solid ground, so that I have so far managed to stay put.  Two attorneys have told me that I am lucky because most people are destroyed.  These people know what they are doing.  Yet I will not stop speaking out.Logo

Remember, I am NOT a medical doctor. I am a survivor.

lithium-orotateThere are many manufacturers of lithium.  If you doctor is prescribing to you lithium carbonate ask him or her about this instead.  This is true to ask if your doctor is giving your seroquel or other types of psychotropics too.  Many are induced into mania from suffering emotional duress.  They cannot prescribe lithium orotate because it is available over the counter.  Most doctors prescribe toxic psychotropics over lithium even though lithium is superior at controlling and even remedying manic symptoms, this is what a medical doctor told me, is because the high doses they are required to prescribe of lithium can quickly cause renal failure.  But that is because THEY have to prescribe such high dosages, usually 180mg or more of lithium, using the carbonate binder.  But just look at the lower amounts of lithium required with the orotate as a binder, 5mg to perhaps 20mg.  That is crazy low.  This reduced amount of lithium can save your kidneys versus the lithium carbonate medical doctors will prescribe to ‘bring you down.’  Ask you doctor not if they can prescribe lithium orotate, but ask your doctor and also your pharmacist if from their education do they see anything harmful in your making a change from lithium carbonate to lithium orotate.  See what they say.  Your asking, if you have a good doctor, may make him or her very happy in doing so.  You can purchase lithium orotate very cheaply over the counter on Amazon, or at most natural remedy compound pharmacies.  They carry it at Dr. Jonathan Wright’s Tahoma Clinic nutritional wellness market.  May good health and recovery be with you.

Here is an article about lithium: :

Lithium aspartate and lithium orotate are gaining recognition as supplements that can help decrease signs of brain aging, slow dementia, and fight depression and addiction. Lithium is a mineral that has long been used in the treatment of bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression. Although the drug can be toxic in high doses, lithium supplements may appeal to those seeking to treat brain illnesses with natural, over-the-counter remedies. However, consult your physician before taking any supplements.
What Is Lithium?
Although the word “lithium” conjures images of psychiatric medication, it is actually a natural alkali metal salt in the same family of minerals as potassium and sodium. Lithium is extracted from mineral springs and brine pools. It is also mined from igneous rock. The two main sources of lithium in the world are Kings Mountain, North Carolina and a salt desert in the Andes Mountains of Chile.
Lithium Salt Binders
Lithium requires a binder, or transporter, to make it accessible to the body. It cannot be absorbed without this binder. Eskalith and Lithobid, the formulations of lithium prescribed to bipolar patients, use carbonate as a transporter. Carbonate is a formulation of carbon and oxygen. Orotate is a salt derived from orotic acid frequently used as a binder for mineral supplements. Aspartate comes from aspartic acid, an amino acid.

Lithium aspartate and lithium orotate are available over-the-counter and contain lower dosages of lithium than lithium carbonate, which must be prescribed by a doctor. Most proponents of low-dose lithium therapy such as Dr. Jonathan Wright recommend them equally. However, aspartate is thought to be an excitotoxin, a substance that binds to nerve cell receptors and may cause damaging over-stimulation. Marlina E. Borkwood, MSc states that excitotoxins can cause headaches, brain edema, eye inflammation, vascular system and central nervous system problems in sensitive individuals. Those who want to try low-dose lithium therapy and have experienced sensitivity to another excitotoxin, monosodium glutamate — a food additive commonly known as MSG — may wish to stick with lithium orotate.
Lithium for Alzheimer’s
Lithium supplementation is gaining recognition as a preventative measure against Alzheimer’s disease, with aspartate and orotate the binders used in the recommended supplements. According to Dr. Jonathan V. Wright, the medical director of the Renton, Washington-based Tahoma Clinic, lithium therapy can slow the progression of Alzheimer’s disease, Parkinson’s disease and senile dementia. A 2000 study conducted by Dr. Gregory Moore, director of the Brain Imaging Research Division of the Wayne State University School of Medicine in Detroit, Michigan, performed MRI scans on 10 bipolar subjects before and after four weeks of lithium treatment. The post-treatment scans revealed a significant increase in gray matter volume compared to the pre-treatment scans. Dr. Moore’s study used lithium carbonate, but proponents of lithium aspartate and lithium orotate treatment see the results as indicative of the overall efficacy of lithium against Alzheimer’s.
Lithium for Mental Illness and Addiction
Prescription lithium carbonate, along with valproic acid and lamotrigine, is a first-line mood stabilizer used for managing bipolar disorder. It is also occasionally used as an adjuvant medication for unipolar depression. According to Dr. Wright, lithium can also be helpful in treating alcoholism. He prescribes his alcoholic patients 10 mg of lithium orotate three times daily, in conjunction with dietary changes, niacin, glutamine and other supplements, and reports that the majority of his patients experience improved mood and decreased desire to drink after approximately six weeks of lithium therapy. A 2006 study published in the British Journal of Addiction reports that symptoms of alcoholism and affective disturbance decreased in patients treated with lithium carbonate.
Lithium is toxic in high doses, with symptoms of toxicity including hand tremors, excessive thirst, frequent urination, nausea and vomiting. Extreme toxicity is indicated by drowsiness, loss of coordination, muscular weakness, blurred vision and ringing in the ears. Significant weight gain is a well-known side effect that causes a portion of those prescribed lithium for mental illness to quit taking their medication. Because renal failure is possible in cases of lithium toxicity, serum monitoring of lithium levels is crucial in those taking doses high enough to treat bipolar disorder.